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When the insomniac night finally ends,
I am here as I have always been, watching
light break the dark horizon, trying to keep time
with some rhyme and reason.
Should I let go and abandon this dreaming?
Or dare I walk towards the dawning of a new day
measured by the sway of my uncertain movement
towards a vague destination where I might find
some tangible sign for living
like the pulse
of a lover
waiting for me there.
Incessant is my desire to name these dark roads,
to scan the landscape of my vision
so I might know if I’m coming
Incessant is my need for what I cannot name,
for what’s been lost, what’s been gained.
Feel the sacrifice.
I am helpless
against this blinding,
There is no map to mark the wanderings of a soul
made restless by insatiable desire to stay
the winding course towards what eludes it.
I will die
if i must,
but I will notgive up.
© Ami Mattison
* Insomniac Night was inspired by the song "Incessant" by Sonia Tetlow.
Flickr photo courtesy of Mara ~earth light~